Real Serious talk again

Yes, I felt like doing this again. It's just something that was on my mind.

Yesterday night, I couldn't sleep... I was thinking about things and I felt kinda depressed. Thinking about sad things, I suddenly felt like crying.

We human beings are living on this world... Slowly "destroying" it. <--- this wasn't actually what I was thinking about.

But, yesterday night I started thinking about this: A girl, in my primary school, who died very young. (OK, this is not very interesting for you guys I think... but yeah... A bit of a side story and there'll be a conclusion in the end ;)

So this girl was very young, and I remembered the day her sister told the whole class, that her baby-sister had cancer. In the beginning everyone was quite positive, and at that time I didn't even realize that much about those things. But who knew months later, or years. She actually died, when she was only 4-years old. It made me quite sad thinking about it. Kinda "torturing" myself, because I think it's stupid that I worry about the smallest details. I shouldn't, I can live.

I didn't even personally know the girl, I didn't even talk to her. Yet at her ceremony I cried :'( really hard and yesterday again, I felt like crying, thinking back at that ceremony where many kids were crying, because of her, and they didn't even know her, just like me.

Thinking about those things I made a decision. If I ever had a wish, I wouldn't use it for myself. If I ever get the chance to make a wish it'll be this: "I wish there would be a cure to cancer." (and I mean all, because some are already curable) since this one seemed a bit realistic, instead of: "I wish there were no diseases." I think, that just doesn't exist, unfortunately. Yeah, it's something which I decided, something non-selfish.

This could be one of the reasons I want to study medicines, to be able to help people. I can't bear to see people in pain, it makes me cry... Of course there's no ideal world, where there's no pain, no hatred. We gotta live with that.

To make this post, not that sad (I don't want to ruin your days ;)) I need some advice. Should I make videos? I'm not really a pro in those kind of things... and I hate my voice (or maybe I should talk with a higher voice, it  could sound less crappy? ;_;) and I have an accent. Yes, I'm not a native speaker, I won't say my English is that bad, otherwise I couldn't be writing posts in English. But I do think I have quite a bad accent >.< at school they don't say a thing about it (I don't mean to brag, but they say my pronunciation is quite good Ö) but yeah, I'm quite the perfectionist y'know.

To end this post, making a "conclusion": will you wish/pray together with me? Wish for a cure for that awful disease.

Actually now I've written down all these things, I'm already doubting my "wishes" but yeah, let's just make it my belief, if I use the correct words.

WebCam pic (>-<)

I wish y'all a nice day! Don't let things get you down and be happy.

xx

PS. If this by accident looks like something some other blogger/youtuber has written/done. It's pure coincidence. I'm smart enough to know I shouldn't be copying: You can't be successful unless you're original. If my blog is the same like "others" people would be like: "Ah, another one of those ...?"

Having a clearer, healthy skin

I'm just like you guys. I live a normal life and I have blemishes. I won't say it's acne (except if you call every blemish you get, acne). My skin is not as bad as someone with acne has. I know I shouldn't complain because there are people with severe acne and suffer from it for a very long time (and of course there are worse stuff than you skin breaking out or so) Deep down everyone wants to have a clear skin, I think. Not everyone is blessed with it unfortunately. But people can't have everything, that's something that I've had to accept over these years. I have a sister, and she has quite severe acne, I'd say, but I think she looks amazing and is amazing for the remaining parts. As I said earlier, I don't suffer from acne but I do have blemishes on my face, I don't have as much as my sister has. But I'm not as amazing as her. One day we also had a discussion: What would you rather have; a nice, slim body with an ugly face full of blemishes or a fat body with a clean, beautiful face. And as expected she chose for the 2nd option and I chose for the 1st one. As an argument she used: "If you have a fat body, you can always work on that. Blemishes won't go away no matter what you try, for my feeling."

Well, the truth is, neither will go away except if you use plastic surgery or really heavy treatments against acne (for the real REAL severe ones, otherwise you'll just have to buy good expensive stuff), but let's not go that far. I'm not as skinny as a lot of those Asians are. I work hard to lose weight but it just doesn't work. I'm too easily tempted with food. I kept telling her that losing weight isn't easy, you do have to work hard for it and you have to have a lot of discipline. Don't eat crisps/chips (only once in a while), don't eat too much chocolate, don't eat too many cookies. I know for sure that if she was fat, she couldn't resist all that.

OK, I was getting a bit too carried away I guess. Let's get back to business. Some things that I use for a better skin:

• Every day I take in brewer's yeast. Yeast is a source of B-complex vitamins. They help to maintain the muscles used for digestion and keep the skin, liver, hair eyes and mouth healthy. Apparently it could also help with weight loss (never knew that O.O shame on me) but there's no real proof of that, yet. Though scientists do say it helps with weight management.
• I wash my face in the morning and evening. This one is logical. Of course you wash your face every morning and evening. Wash off all those damn bacteria and feel clean ;)
• Use a good cleanser. I have to admit, I'm being a bit of a hypocrite now, because I also don't use a proper cleanser yet :o shame on me again. I'm thinking of buying one from The Beauty Bakery, 100% natural and not super expensive.
• I'm not sure if this really helps but, drink a lot especially water and tea (without sugar to be extra healthy ;)). I try to drink at least 1.5 L a day. When you make a real habit out of it you won't drink anything else at home.
• As for tea I drink Oolong and Green tea. They could both help with weight loss and have antioxidants, though I have not confirmed the part about weight loss yet, probably because I still eat too much :o. Green tea could also lower the risk of cardiovascular diseases and cancer.
• I try to get at least 8 hours of sleep. Saying this will also make me kind of a hypocrite. On school days I almost never get 8 hours of sleep, I'm just too busy or have been lazing around for too long and still have to do homework just before going to bed :') hehe. Getting enough sleep doesn't only give your skin the peace it needs, it also contributes to reducing your dark circles, a bit, they still don't disappear after sleeping for so many hours with me :') Genes...
• Avoid greasy- and fast food. Is quite doable for me... Maybe my new motivation? Telling myself it's better when I don't eat French fries because it's better for my skin AND better for losing weight.

(seeing this makes me hungry :p)

Let's get healthy-nyan!

Nyoro~n

edit: PS. I forgot to mention, Omega 3 is also good for your skin (and your brain ;)) Let's eat fish yay!